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God’s Promises & Our Trials

16736_340729225612_4993481_nAt the end of last year, after having faced more trials in my year than there were weeks or even days, I was able to go home for a month. I headed back to the coast, where the sand, salt and sea could soothe my soul. My usual escape and place for clearing my head and finding healing in my heart. I was able to come to term with many things and also found peace. I was blessed enough to witness a close friend’s beautiful wedding, get good news from other friends of their engagements and spend time with people I had missed seeing during the year.

In that time though, all was going well and God made many promises, in my weeks of getting back to Pretoria, more promises were made by God in the midst of trials. But when you’re in the midst of trials, these promises can become blurry and everything can seem pretty darn negative if you ask me. He has made good promises about my happiness but others that only bring testing, and sometimes it can get really hard to hold onto those and to be positive about it all.

God promises many things, lots being about our happiness, but many times the things God promises can be less about happiness and more about testing. But this doesn’t make them less of a gift.

This morning God drew my attention to Mary. The promise that she would have a child was both a blessing and a test.  I’m pretty sure she suffered a lot of rejection from family and friends because of this pregnancy out of wedlock, and then she still had to watch her son go to the cross. In our terms this would be quite a messy situation but from God’s perspective it was a Divine Intervention that would end up saving the world and her suffering would give way to blessing.

How hard it is in the midst of a trial to see any light at the end of the tunnel? How hard must it have been for Mary to watch her child suffer on the cross? Was she so faithful that she waited in expectancy for His resurrection? Or was she too sad or worried to even think? I mean, if it were me, in the midst of sadness and worry, I hardly eat and my mind doesn’t switch off, imagine being her. Or even yourself, in whatever trial you may be facing at the moment.

When God makes us a promise, the only thing we can do is hold on to it. Even in the face of doubt and pain, we have to hold on tight to what we were promised.  When we suffer, like Mary had, we have to keep our minds focused on the things we have heard from God. We have to be clear about who or what we will believe – our eyes or God’s promises.

No matter what life throws at us, not people or things, we can find a deep peace in knowing that God’s will is perfect and that He never lets anything happen to us unless it will bring good and Him glory. When His glory becomes our number one goal, we know we having nothing to fear when trials hit. When we choose to courageously look suffering in the eyes and say, “God’s will be done,” our faith will be a rock to stand on and we will find relief where others only find agony.

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Our Tears Collected

In life the going can really get tough and after the year we have had in Intentional Living, it has been extremely tough at times and still continues to be.

Last night, I went to have something to drink with a friend. Very last minute, but this friend was going through a crisis and still is. When I got to her, her eyes were red and puffy from crying…I knew deep within me what was going on before it had happened.

Anyway, after a tough year, her year got even more tough and I really felt sorry for her, because I have been there. This year has been crazy with the trials we’ve gone through. She has been crying all week, since Monday and I can totally understand. We’re just so damn tired of all this, all this stuff happening. Losing people or things, bad situations….even now, when it is something she had prayed about, something that she knows is God’s will and has gone out in faith and done what He has asked even though it is hard and difficult for her… She has been faithful..but as we know, being faithful and what we have to do for God, won’t always be easy and fun. And this time, as every trial we’ve been through this year so far, it is very far from fun.

What is really cool about God, is that He knows what we need before we ask and when you go out as a friend, just to listen and love them..somehow God is always able to use us in these kinds of situations. After our talk last night, even though I didn’t feel very helpful and I tried to give her advice from my experiences, God still used me… She let me know afterward, that she was glad I had come, because she just had to make sense of things with someone and that she has felt such peace come over her. I was pretty stoked that she had peace about what was happening. And I was just as stoked, because I hadn’t come there looking for answers for myself or anything for me, but when I left, I felt so much peace about my life and what I am doing at the moment, as well as about my relationships… It was pretty amazing. I left feeling extremely peaceful and grateful and like God really just is in control of it all, which is a pretty darn good feeling to have after this crazy hectic year and all the tears we’ve cried…

So all in all what I can say is, God is faithful. Even though this year, I’ve cried millions of tears, God really counts them all and I know He sees it and will do something about them, especially when I can’t. And after all the tears you have cried, if you keep holding onto Him, peace DOES come and when it does, it is incredible. I am so grateful for where I am now, the peace I have and I am sure it will come for my friend too.

So lastly I want to leave you with a verse a friend sent to me earlier in the year, and I was reminded of while praying for this friend this morning.

Psalm 56v8-13:

You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. On the very day I call to you for help, my enemies will retreat. This I know: God is on my side. O God, I praise your word. Yes, Lord, I praise your word. I trust in God, so why should I be afraid? What can mere mortals do to me?  I will fulfill my vows to you, O God, and offer a sacrifice of thanks for your help. For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now I can walk in your presence, O God, in your life-giving light.

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Trials & tribulations of life….

I know I haven’t posted in a while but this past week following a tragic weekend in my life had me busy and without words to write….

A dear friend drowned and died at a waterfall on our weekend away with friends.

An amazing guy named Victor. What a sad loss. For long there were no comforting words that could be said, especially to us as friends, who ended up not being able to save him. Amazingly though, even after this tragic loss, I now feel it definitely brought us as friends closer. A huge close family. And not only that, I think it changed the views of many people.

As a younger generation we are usually okay with races being mixed and having any colour friends. But the older generation, for them it is not that easy. So with Victor’s death, it brought us – as white kids, to go into the African community and township. Many were quite shocked to see so many white kids – more than 20 of us – coming into their township and into his parents home, guys formally dressed, girls wearing long skirts and traditional head coverings , all out of respect to the culture and them. For them it was facinating but for us it was also eye opening to see where he grew up and why he had such a heart for a better future in South Africa. Amongst all the tradgedy there was a sense of reconciliation and greater respect for one another – it has just changed how we look at things and given us a bigger sense of life and appreciation for people and life in itself.

It was a difficult week though, for everyone. You could feel a heaviness hanging over our house and hearts. But after the memorial and funeral it seems as if peace has come. God has sent comfort and I am sure He will restore us in ways we even thought wouldn’t be possible.

Victor with his best friends, Mzamo & Muzi (Victor all the way to the right)

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