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Hope with Promise

wind1After all I experienced last year, all the death and pain and loss, all the discomfort and hurt and disappointment, I can honestly say, I still haven’t learnt how to completely deal with it. I thought I had, but I have been truly humbled by losing Riamien, as I saw how much I still needed to learn about processing the disappointment and hurt and loss. I saw it in the shock I felt when I heard the news, then the sudden anger & disappointment I felt towards God…all the crying I did and shouting and babbling between tears that my friend Jean, at that moment – had to deal with…luckily he was very understanding and patient and handled me with such love and grace. He didn’t give me answers and he sat and prayed with me, speaking only when God allowed him and I am so blessed and thankful for that. He truly is an amazing spiritual brother.

At about 12pm that evening I was still awake and Doug heard the news, and sent me a sermon by Bill Johnson that speaks exactly about this loss and how we deal with it. Doug and a few others had me travel down to meet them at the coast last year when I had also suffered another loss, so I think he just knew this was needed. Bill Johnson speaks in this sermon about a few things but especially about learning to process disappointment & how to walk through & navigate when things don’t turn out how expected or prayed for or whatever it may be. I truly believe, in every part of my spirit and soul, that this is something we need to learn to do otherwise many things in our life will be out of balance.

Learning to process disappointment & how to walk through & navigate when things don’t turn out how expected, may be one of the most difficult lessons to learn. It is something which may have to be repeated every time you go through a disappointment, so that you learn to apply and understand the concept but it is of great value. We need to learn to minister to ourselves and know how to navigate this disappointment to be able to fully step into what God has intended for us, to step fully into our calling.

We cannot be trusted with the fulfilment of promise until we know how to trust God when things don’t look so good. Therefore we need to trust in Him.

We need to trust the Lord with all our heart, leaning not on our own understanding, but acknowledging Him in all our ways so that He may direct our paths. (Paraphrased from Proverbs 3v5&6).

The word Yedah is translated from the Hebrew as “acknowledge” about only once in Bible.. the rest of the time it speaks of “to know”. So put that in the place of “acknowledge” and you’ll have:

Trust the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways – KNOW (acknowledge) Him, and He will direct your paths.(Proverbs 3v5&6)

We need to trust Him in everything. Trust Him with everything. Take all the stuff that seem or are hard to navigate or process and make them easy to navigate or process – in all our ways KNOW HIM.

And He prepares a table before me, in the presence of my enemies. (Psalm 23v5)

This verse tells of the table God prepares for us in the presence of our enemies, in front of the devil. It is a place of intimacy, intimate gathering, a place of closeness and refuge. We need to find that place, in the midst of disappointment, in the midst of all the chaos, despite what we feel at that moment – find that place of communion and then He will help us navigate.

It is like finding the eye of the tornado. It is the place where it is most peaceful. Drawing closer to God, drawing near to Him and KNOWing Him in all things and all ways.

In times of difficulty, actually so many times, we throw in the towel and say that ‘this isn’t what we signed up for.’ In a moment of great tragedy or loss or some disappointment, we give up. We get angry, we get sad – which is normal and is probably okay in trying to come to terms with whatever has happened, but when we make that decision that this is not what we signed up for then we are wrong, because we did. We did when we said ‘yes’ to the Lord, when we accepted Him.

God has such a profound ability to redeem any terrible or horrific situation that many people including those in churches will assume the conclusion that God designed that terrible/horrific situation and to just assume that is wrong. Often, I have made the mistake of thinking that and assuming such nonsense and falling into the devil’s trap. This is where we need to understand the difference between what God approves, what He ordains and what the enemy means for evil.

Death, loss, destruction – those are Satan’s fingerprints, they are NOT God’s. (This is something Jean and many others have told me over and over, but something I quickly seem to forget…)

Bill asks and says the following and I love how he puts it and I totally agree:

Q: Can God use disease?

A: Of course He can. He is able to shift things to use to His advantage. But we would never think God led someone into sin but the church often says He leads people into disease to make them stronger. This is not true. God would no more lead someone into sickness/disease than He would lead them into sin.

If we look at drug addicts who get free from drugs, we will see that they usually end up ministering to other drug addicts with great authority. When truly free, they walk with authority in that area and God uses them to set others free. That applies to many situations.

God’s ability is so profound in His capability of taking a fallen person and raising them up and giving them authority in the area that they fell in, that those who haven’t yet come to Christ can easily make the mistake of thinking that God is leading them into sin so that He could use their sin for something better.

But we know that is not true.

If we understand the concept of grace correctly then we should naturally come to that conclusion (that God does not lead us into sin). Paul deals with that exact question in Romans asking ‘so should we sin so we can see grace abound?’

But in this question, he just outlines the fact that God’s grace is more than enough and answers the question by saying, ‘no, absolutely not.’

The point being that God would never lead you into any horrific sin so that later in life He could use you to promote the Gospel. And as that is true, He would never afflict anyone into disease so that they or their family would be a better family or whatever the reason we may think.

May God, the source of hope, fill you with joy and peace through your faith in Him. Then you will overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15v13)

Faith will bring answers but not all the answers and that is why there is something like enduring faith. If faith brought all the answers, you wouldn’t need enduring faith. So faith brings answers, but enduring faith brings answers with character.

There is a great privilege in seeing God touch people’s lives. That is stated and made clear in the book of Acts, as miracles and breakthrough is seen. The power of God is displayed in miracles and then also displayed in endurance.

Bill Johnson talks about Steven, in the Bible. What a great servant he was – to have served Jesus, the Great Deliverer, until the very day of his martyrdom, when the Great Deliverer did not deliver him. It just shows the great honour there is, in standing in the midst of mystery when there hasn’t been a breakthrough and to still have that ‘yes to the Lord’ in your heart. There is just something so special about keeping the resolve when things didn’t work out as you thought. Keeping the trust in the One Most Trustworthy is the great privilege of the Christian life.

Falling into the hands of the Living God is a terrifying thing. (Hebrews 10v31)

To have God in control can often be a scary thought. Giving all control up and knowing it is all in His hands is scary, especially in the situation of a loved one who is sick or something that means a lot to you. But it can also be a very wonderful thing. Waiting on Him to make the decisions is an amazing thing, because delayed answers gain interest. And wherever God says no – it is because He has a better ‘yes’ to follow.

Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you endured in a great conflict full of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. You suffered along with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. (Hebrews 10v32-36)

The power of God on our life is to demonstrate the Kingdom. It is to demonstrate the delivering, redeeming power of Jesus, but there are times that this doesn’t seem to work or to happen. And it is then, that the power lies in the ability to remain ‘yes’ before the Lord when our circumstances seem to deny what we thought would happen. There is power in the miracles but there is also power in the endurance.

Referring back to Psalm 23v5 – In the celebration He makes the devil watch. Every time we say we love Jesus, it is like He plays it over the devil’s intercom so that he hears it.

So whether we get a promotion at work, do well in a test or a loved one dies – in all your ways KNOW HIM. Take a moment to feast on the One THAT IS more than enough. When you do that, the disease that comes from disappointment cannot and will not devour the heart.

We need to learn to do that. Many times, I myself or others, put all the weight of our/their walk with God on an answer we think should happen. No matter how Biblically sound it appears to be – the weight of God’s entire character rests on one particular breakthrough. And to do this, I’ve realized and have been told too, is so ridiculous and so extremely dangerous! To put our whole walk with Christ, everything we’ve experienced with Him; His call – when He called us by name, called us to relationship with Him and we said ‘yes’ and repentance came and we believed in His name and we were born-again; to put all that into question if we don’t become or get what we thought we should – is dangerous. It is absolutely foolish because that is exactly what the enemy wants. He wants us to constantly put everything in a corner with no understanding of it.

The question then is that although I believe in miracles, what if I never saw one for the rest of my life? What would I do?

Bill says – Even if he never saw one for the rest of his life, he’d already seen too much to change how he lives. He can’t put the weight of how he’s going to live on just one more prophetic word, just one more miracle or one more encounter. He’s already seen enough.

And that’s how we need to see this.

God has called us to fight for breakthrough for His glory, but when things don’t work out, there are probably things that are wrapped around these problems that we do not know how to dismantle. But He is giving us insight and maturing us. The formulae that we have for breakthrough to happen should be destroyed. Because it isn’t a formula, it is a relationship with this Being where He breathes life into us, every moment, day by day. And we need to take these losses as painful as they are – or as tragic as they are – and they need to drive us into that secret place with the Lord where we say ‘God you’ve gotta increase the anointing, increase our understanding where it’s needed so that these things that are wrapped around these problems, that have not yet yielded to the name Jesus – show me what I can do?’

Whenever there’s a loss or disappointment – being able to stand with an absolute ‘yes’ to God, is where strength is discovered.

Anyone who has gone through a loss or is dealing with it right now will be able to testify to not being particularly strong right now, as they are all depleted of strength, drained from emotion. But that’s where God says His strength is perfected in weakness (refer to 2 Corinthians 12v9 or Philippians4v13 or Nehemiah8v10).

Anytime there is someone depleted of all the strength they can muster up, yet they’ve retained their ‘yes’ to God – that is some of the most profound strength that exists on this planet. It’s the ‘yes’ in the midst of no ability to pull ourselves up by the boot straps…it’s that ‘yes’.  That trusting with all your heart. Faith brings answers. Enduring faith brings answers. And then there is Romans 8v28:

We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God – those whom He has called according to His purpose.

That promise isn’t even necessary if there are things that don’t make it past faith and past enduring faith.

We cannot lose trust in the One who is perfectly good. We need to realise that there are things we do not understand and if for some reason it seems to appear that there was a NO – that there’s a better YES coming and when we realize that, it turns our hearts to that hope and promise.

It’s not endurance – it is hope with promise.

All things work together for good. That is for all the things that get past faith and enduring faith. It’s the confidence that God is able to use the worst of situations for His glory. And in eternity you’ll look back at all the things you questioned and say ‘AMEN.’

Funerals put us in touch with eternity. This life is a mere breath, a shadow. Eternity is a substance and that’s what we’re living for. Anytime we lose sight of that, eternity is what keeps us and our morals sound. It’s like athletes who train for 4 years to run a 10 second race. It is basically just a moment. We live, for however long it is, for that one moment…To hear, ‘Well done.’ Everything is for that ONE moment.

So all I know now, is that I have gotta get back to that table. That table that God has put there, and although I may be surrounded by my enemy – he’s the one that is powerless as I draw near to feast on the One who is perfectly faithful.tumblr_mc093jWMEJ1rxxk99o1_500_large (1)

The prayer that Bill Johnson left me with is as follows:

“That God would raise up a generation of champions that hold the resolve of a profound ‘yes’ regardless of circumstances, yet a people that grow in anointing and wisdom to unravel the things that surround disease, affliction and torment. That there would be an increase of breakthrough anointing, that there would be an unusual grace & ability to find the table that has been set in the midst of enemies, in the midst of confusing situations and to be able to feast. I also thank Him for making the devil watch our relationship which increasingly grows. I bless the Lord. Amen.”

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. (James 1v17)

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Friendship Blooming Like a Rose

Today I had coffee with Liela…my special friend. We went to Tribeccas on our University Campus. As always, our coffee date didn’t disappoint. I haven’t seen her in a month so doing some catch up time like this is a whole session of DMCs. Anyway, it was great chatting and catching up.

Campus is extremely peaceful this time of year with exams and all, and so beautiful in the summer time with the trees and flowers, so our setting was perfect. 

Obviously, I got to chat to her sharing deep stories and where I am at now. As soon as exams are done, it will be a more peaceful time for her to spend with Yvotte, which I am extremely happy about. And at the same time, I am busy moving into a more peaceful season in my life now. We spoke for ages about what is happening in our lives and what we’re doing next year. I am so grateful to have her around and to say we will still be in Pretoria together next year. We spoke about seasons changing…hers has changed as Yvotte is part of her life now and she has new things on the horizons. Like me, she has also left TMC and isn’t going to the LIV outreach either. Both of us are moving into seasons where we can say a lot is behind us and we’re walking on into new phases. New chapters are waiting to be written and it is things we have prayed for all year and now it is finally coming together. We both feel like we don’t need to be on TMC (the Tuks Missions Committee) as we have served our time there, and for some people it has just become a status thing, so we’re ready to move on. She also said she just doesn’t feel like God is calling her to go to LIV this year and I can honestly say the same. The only reason I might visit is to see Tich, his wife, the mothers of the village & kids for a day or two and catch up with them as I did earlier in the year and then visit Freddy and them who are finishing matric now. I also spoke about my studies and that I’m moving out of Intentional Living this year. It was one amazing year but I’m glad to be  moving out. This year has been one of the toughest that I’ve seen in all 3 of the years at Intentional Living… Lots has happened and I am ready for a more peaceful season, I too am moving into different relationships, studying phases and strengthening friendships with people like Liela. So we are both at a place where we are moving into special, peaceful seasons that we have been waiting and praying for and now they have come and we are ready for them. 

We’re kind of ready to move on from old things into the new, making new memories. Living positively and just enjoying being alive. 

That being said we also spoke about and discussed our surf trip we would have had this December. Between exams and all that has happened it has been a little rough and has bought plans to a halt. So we have decided to postpone the trip which is a blessing and we’re both really at peace about. It helps because if we wait, we’ll possibly get place to stay for free. We’ll be able to plan really well and only have to worry about petrol and food and have time to save up. So all in all, postponing has been just as much of a blessing. We still need to round up people and friends for this trip and we’ve decided we’d like to do it over Easter in April next year. So I’m really excited as that keeps God in the midst of things and makes the trip a little more special than it would normally be. 

Getting together with Liela doesn’t always happen as often especially with how hectic this year has been so we’re hoping to make the most of the last couple of weeks that I’m in Pretoria before heading home to the coast and then next year. So in this time, she’ll be sending her exam roster so that we can make a time to hit that old bucket list of ours. We’re hoping to have a little sleepover at her house, watch some movies on our bucket list and do a few other activities from our bucket list. So I can’t wait for that either.

Lastly, about this special friend of mine. She has so much love and wisdom in her and it always shines brightly through her. I can share anything with her, we do the craziest things together and we’re both very passionate people. Our friendship is such a pure one that I cherish so much. So, today, as I headed out to see her, I found a rose in the garden and picked it up for Liela. I was just reminded by God through the rose, of how special and delicate our friendship is and how much it is like a white rose. Pure, and beautiful, leaving the aroma of God and His Love behind. There is nothing more beautiful than a rose blooming in the Summer time, and such is our friendship.

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Our Tears Collected

In life the going can really get tough and after the year we have had in Intentional Living, it has been extremely tough at times and still continues to be.

Last night, I went to have something to drink with a friend. Very last minute, but this friend was going through a crisis and still is. When I got to her, her eyes were red and puffy from crying…I knew deep within me what was going on before it had happened.

Anyway, after a tough year, her year got even more tough and I really felt sorry for her, because I have been there. This year has been crazy with the trials we’ve gone through. She has been crying all week, since Monday and I can totally understand. We’re just so damn tired of all this, all this stuff happening. Losing people or things, bad situations….even now, when it is something she had prayed about, something that she knows is God’s will and has gone out in faith and done what He has asked even though it is hard and difficult for her… She has been faithful..but as we know, being faithful and what we have to do for God, won’t always be easy and fun. And this time, as every trial we’ve been through this year so far, it is very far from fun.

What is really cool about God, is that He knows what we need before we ask and when you go out as a friend, just to listen and love them..somehow God is always able to use us in these kinds of situations. After our talk last night, even though I didn’t feel very helpful and I tried to give her advice from my experiences, God still used me… She let me know afterward, that she was glad I had come, because she just had to make sense of things with someone and that she has felt such peace come over her. I was pretty stoked that she had peace about what was happening. And I was just as stoked, because I hadn’t come there looking for answers for myself or anything for me, but when I left, I felt so much peace about my life and what I am doing at the moment, as well as about my relationships… It was pretty amazing. I left feeling extremely peaceful and grateful and like God really just is in control of it all, which is a pretty darn good feeling to have after this crazy hectic year and all the tears we’ve cried…

So all in all what I can say is, God is faithful. Even though this year, I’ve cried millions of tears, God really counts them all and I know He sees it and will do something about them, especially when I can’t. And after all the tears you have cried, if you keep holding onto Him, peace DOES come and when it does, it is incredible. I am so grateful for where I am now, the peace I have and I am sure it will come for my friend too.

So lastly I want to leave you with a verse a friend sent to me earlier in the year, and I was reminded of while praying for this friend this morning.

Psalm 56v8-13:

You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. On the very day I call to you for help, my enemies will retreat. This I know: God is on my side. O God, I praise your word. Yes, Lord, I praise your word. I trust in God, so why should I be afraid? What can mere mortals do to me?  I will fulfill my vows to you, O God, and offer a sacrifice of thanks for your help. For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now I can walk in your presence, O God, in your life-giving light.

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Angels Passing Through

Many times, we struggle with waking up early…I mean, it is all good and well when you know you’re getting up early to go down to the beach but when you’re living in the city and it’s to pray, in the early hours after a long night – suddenly it isn’t half as easy as usual.

But when you do get up, especially when you really do feel like it, somehow it always seem worth it and more memorable than other times. This morning was one of those mornings which I didn’t want to get up. I got to bed late, I just didn’t feel it.

I dragged myself out of bed after my alarm had gone off. I decided to go to the study with my Bible, laptop and diary, got myself a cup of tea and sat down. I needed to pray for a friend and then Heinrich, Aunty Valencia, Ingrid, Karen and Bernhard – as Uncle Johann passed away exactly a month ago.

It was a dark morning, looked like it was going to rain but it has turned out to be a gorgeous, hot day. But this morning, after praying, the house was still quiet. I was able to open the door of the study that opens so that wind comes in. It was just such

a peaceful morning, that really had me feeling peaceful and feeling God’s presence. It was just such a pleasure to listen to the wind blowing through the rustling leaves of the trees….the rustling of the leaves made sounds I love. It sounded like it was raining.Every time I hear that sound, I am reminded of what a friend use to tell me about that…. “Every time you hear the sound of the wind, they say, it is God’s angels passing through,” – that really brought a smile to my face. The same sound that the trees made when the wind was blowing at Uncle Johann’s grave the Friday that he was buried. But it was just amazing to me, how God made His Presence known and filled me with His Gracious Love.

So even when we do struggle, I guess God knows it and when we push through the struggling, He gives us a moment…a beautiful memorable moment with Him.

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Colours of Change

The Lord works in mysterious ways…and that is definitely an understatement. A little prayer can go a long way and it seems that every day is a new adventure with God. He seems to be able to do amazing things when our hearts are willing and desire those things just as much.

When our hearts line up with what He wants to do in our lives and with what He intends for us to be and we desire that…it is such an incredibly beautiful moment. When we give all the pieces of our heart to Him, not just after it has been broken but at any point and you give Him the chance to fix it and do what He needs with it, amazing things tend to happen. When we let Him do His Will in our lives and praise Him no matter the outcome and carry on serving patiently and faithfully while we wait, He really does come through for us and things we could never have imagined start happening.

I’ve seen this in my own life, but also in the lives of others. When we go to God, seeking change – firstly in ourselves and then others..giving our hearts and lives fully over into His hands.. Change comes and it seems to make a greater impact on ourselves and to those around us. When we take the time to really dwell in His Presence each day, being refreshed by Him and being faithful in prayer because we really want and desire change with all that we are – He is faithful in rewarding and bringing change. Sometimes, it isn’t seen by others, but sometimes the changes are so drastic that others cannot help but notice and delight in God’s love shining through.

It is like the ocean…those beautiful pools that come in the most indescribable blues, that can be seen from afar but are nothing compared to what they are when you see them up close.. I can remember my first experience like that. I had always seen the water from afar, and even swimming and surfing…you still are too close to shore to see the deep dark blue water that lurks beyond shark nets and the bays… I got on a boat and was taken out to sea… I couldn’t believe the change in the colours of the blue…how beautiful and mysterious. I remember having to touch the water, running my fingers through it as I leaned over the boat while it was still moving, just to see if it was real. I couldn’t believe such a drastic change could be possible and I guess that was the day I decided as a kid, anything is possible. But I can say, I loved it… it was amazing seeing something so drastic up close. That what I had known, could be changed from something beautiful to something magical and magnificent. It was still the same ocean, just a whole different colour which took my breath away.

After praying over the phone with someone, Sunday night, someone who willingly wanted to pray and really see change in his life – and wanted to see the change in himself first, before pointing his finger at others and telling them to change… These past two days, I have been able to hear and witness the changes…just in his attitude, messages and so forth. This guy, just being focused on God no matter what, focusing on being more positive and grateful – and I have had the honour of witnessing that. A guy willing to change himself first and giving that over to God, giving each aspect of his life over to God, repenting for wrongs, waking up earlier each day to seek God in prayer and each day after the praying over the phone he seems like a changed person – so drastic that it is hard not to notice.

When you come to God in truth, being honest and truly wanting change, starting with yourself, before trying to change others, God will take your hand and be close to you. He will bring change as long as you are willing and desire it with all you have. 

You’re like the ocean…

Pretty enough on the surface, 

but dive down into your depths

And you’ll find beauty most people never see.

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Power in Prayer

Praying was never something I did, to be honest. I’ve always chosen to write little letters to God. Lots of times, they were just requests. But since December 2010, God has been working on my prayer life and it has changed immensely. I think, I pray more now than I ever did in my 21 years of being alive and I hope to do that even more. My prayers have also changed; they don’t consist of requests only anymore and when I ask for God’s will in my life, I don’t get angry if I don’t get my way or what I asked for. Sometimes I get frustrated but I get over it. Prayer is different for everybody, and I love it now more than I ever did.

So in my life, prayer and love have become my secret weapons. This year, I’ve really seen God use my prayer life for the better and I’m sure He uses a whole world of prayer lives. I have also learnt to be comfortable to pray anywhere at any time. To me, it has become like normal conversation and I guess that’s how it should be.

So anyway, I have been praying over the phone with friends at the weirdest times due to distance between us and them being far away. Some have been in Pretoria, others have stretched far beyond that boundary of distance and have been in other provinces.

All I can say, is that it has been an honour to see what God has done through prayer and it is amazing. His care and provision for me and my friends has been incredible and the changes I’ve been blessed to see and have heard have been far beyond what I ever imagined possible. People can really change when and if they want to and with God’s help nothing has been impossible.

But what has been totally rad to see, is the relationship built over the phone and through prayer. Even though we are far apart, there is just something so magical that happens somewhere in the spiritual realm when two or more people come together in prayer. God really seems to manifest there and you can feel the Holy Spirit move between us. You can feel it in your soul. It is like souls and prayers get woven together so intricately and with such detail that it does go far beyond what we can imagine although it is extremely tangible. When we come together in prayer, it just feels like whatever issues we may be praying for, become easier to handle. There’s a little more peace and support and the weight that was on your shoulders, feels a little lighter. God really opens up a lot of doors in the conversations over the phone and in the prayer that takes place, pieces are revealed and hearts can really open up to sharing. Deep issues and even lighter ones are strung out. People’s hearts and true feelings are revealed and also the changes people want to see.

I could go on…but what I want to say, is that you should value your prayer life as there is so much power in prayer..No matter how simple that prayer might seem. What happens when praying or even when two or more people come together in His name – cherish it. It is so magical.

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Amazed

It amazes me how God works and how He knows each and every single person’s heart. Today was just a hot summer day but also an important one. Wihann was to go in for his first radiation treatment, Ben was to go for his tests & hear whether or not he is clean of cancer. Yesterday Riamien went in for her tests to hear if she is cancer free and earlier this week, Bernhard’s dad was critically in ICU with his cancer. Now the weather has turned to rain and I know God is here as I reflect on His amazing work. I can literally feel Him, His Presence and His Power.

Each time I have prayed & written to God in my journal, it has astounded me how every time I have, the verse at the bottom of the page has been one that correlates to whatever I was praying about.

As I prayed for Bernhard’s dad & that his condtion will improve the following verse was on the page – John 14v27: Peace I leave with you, My peace I give you.  I was so at peace after that and the next day I got news from Bernhard, that God had worked and his father was no longer critical and his condition seemed to be improving.

I was praying about finances not working out & that I was worried & I don’t know how I would do a trip God had put on my heart because of money being so tight. The verse on that page was – Psalm 31v15: My times are in Your Hands, Lord. Again, I was reminded to trust God. Later that day though, a lady sent me a verse that put me at peace and reminded me that God will take care of it all and that I shouldn’t worry as He has freed me from any bondage or anything weighing me down. It was – Leviticus 26v13: I am the Lord, your God. I bought you out of Egypt so that you are no longer slaves. I have broken their power over you and made you live as free people.

Riamien also asked that we pray for her as she goes for her scans & tests. I was praying for her & Emma – who had an exam the same day, the verse was – Philippians 4v13: I can do all this through Him who gives me strength.  They both did very well. Emma’s exam went well & we are still waiting to hear what the results were for Riamien.

Then this morning, I lifted up Wihann & Ben in prayer. The verses that were on the pages this time were – Jude 2: Mercy, peace and love be yours in abundance & Psalm 46v10: Be still, and know that I am God. This afternoon I heard from Tanja (Ben’s girlfriend) that the test results came back & Ben is clean & cancer free 🙂 I think I nearly cried when I heard the good news..I probably did. I prayed and thanked God for what He had done & for being with Ben & Wihann today and the verse was: James 1v17 – Every good and perfect gift is from above (God). Again I was just amazed by Him.

Not only when I lifted up these people, but also as I prayed about this trip that God has put on my heart, another verse came up and that was: Matthew 6v21 – Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Such a beautiful verse. It amazes me how God works & how much of His love I get to experience for each person as I pray for them. He loves us all so much, too much to describe or even realize. But the bit that I do realize, just leaves me AMAZED.

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For every Woman, as You are Special!

Here is a prayer that each woman can pray, as you step into the authority Christ has given you. A prayer in which you start believing in God’s promises and asking Him to help you.

Lord,

Thank You for Your faithfulness & that You create everything beautiful. From today & forever more, may I always feel beautiful. Acting & thinking beautiful. Having beautiful thoughts that always leads to smiling & can’t be avoided. May I move with & in grace, being alluring & captivating. May I walk with confidence as I know & believe I am loved, accepted & desired by You. As I walk in this truth, may I always feel secure, thus being decisive & strong – leaning into each moment. Help me to believe in my passions, abilities & gifts. Allow me to be peaceful & assured as I give off that fragrance. May I always posses an unshakeable hope that allows me to turn away from the past & look towards the future. Allow me to hear Your words of promise & rebuke words of unbelief & fear, therefore trusting in the devotion I have found in You. May my hope always be & remain steadfast as I believe & know I am rescued & held in Your Arms. Help me step into the authority given through You so I can be a woman of Your light & incredible fragrance. All this, under the Blood of the Lamb, I ask.

Amen.

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