Posts Tagged With: peace

Daddy’s Heartbeat

My friendLeani's daughter Lanelle... Just fits this topic so perfectly.

My friend Leani’s daughter Lanelle… Just fits this topic so perfectly.

Over the weekend in the midst of yet another spiritual attack and manifestation, I felt the need to closer my ears…firstly whatever had appeared in my room had walked pretty loudly…heavy footsteps…once again Satan had me scared, feeling vulnerable and fearful…this hadn’t been his first attack in the last couple of days so I knew what was going on…

For me, I get pretty scared by what I hear and see…I know I’m not supposed to because I am chosen, I am perfect, I am a princess, I  inherit God’s kingdom, I am His daughter, I am HIS… but I still feel a little vulnerable and scared and my Daddy seems to know that…. So this weekend when the devil was trying to attack me once again, God made me close my ears..so I pulled the covers over my ears, I don’t know why but this has always made me feel safe… but I started to close my eyes and ears and tried singing in my head so I could concentrate on something else…the singing wasn’t helping..

But I am blessed to have a Dad, a King who pursues me, His daughter, even when I’m scared and feeling like I’ve failed yet again to be brave… He then told me to focus on Him and listen for Him, using the covers as a safety net and as something to help me block out what was going on around me..helping me to forget about my carnal senses and focus my senses on Him and what can be heard and seen in the Spirit…As I focused on Him and listened for Him, I slowly began hearing a soft murmuring…but not just any kind, rather that of a heartbeat… The more I focused the louder it got until all I could hear is this heartbeat. It was a very calm and relaxed heartbeat which seemed to calm my Spirit and my Soul and body…it calmed my emotions…I felt God tell me that is His heartbeat and that as long as I always remember to focus on Him and His heartbeat, I won’t ever have to feel afraid… I can do it at any time that I am feeling a little less brave or courageous and He will help me through… It was honestly the most precious moment ever… After that I was awake the rest of the night but I felt calm and at peace and scared no longer. A beautiful gift and something I will practice and remember…something I cherish.

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Peace…Freedom…Opportunities

The world is my oyster #excitedmuch

The world is my oyster #excitedmuch

So spending some time in God’s presence today has been just amazing. This week was chaotic filled with joy but tears too. In every moment I’ve been fearful of what is to come as I have no idea what to expect.

But today God has just reassured me of His presence and hand over the situation. He holds us in His hand and although letting go and giving all control over to Him can seem scary, it is great knowing that He holds all the decisions in His hands and that He knows what He doing and I can relax fully in Him and know He turns all things to my good. I can just chill out and enjoy every moment of life, fully, 100% and not worry about what is to come.  I get to enjoy the moments and freedom that comes with it all.

Excited for what God's doing in my life right now :)

Excited for what God’s doing in my life right now 🙂

And yes, right now I am excited, I do feel free and I feel so at peace knowing God is in control. It feels like the world and life itself is my oyster and I can do anything, not only does it feel that way, it IS that way as Jesus died for me and has given it all unto me…I literally get to hold it all in my hands…I CAN do all things, anything through Christ who strengthens me…

I have no clue what will happen but I have a feeling it is gonna be good and I am super excited. Feel like I’m bouncing from cloud to cloud.

Xx

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Overcome by His Peace

This morning I’m sitting at the airport here in Durban feeling more than just peaceful.

I feel overwhelmed by His great love for me and pursued as any princess & daughter of God should feel.

Last night before I fell asleep and this morning when I woke up for my 6.30 flight, I felt anxious. Not wanting to go home anymore and feeling quite nervous. I was truly dreading this flight and going home. And lonely I guess.

But this morning, everything at the airport went quickly, there was hardly any wait. The flight was smooth and it was absolutely gorgeous seeing the sun rise over the land as well as over the ocean this morning. I had no one sitting beside me except a very nice young lady and then some awesome loud and joking-around-kind-of-people behind me. I felt pursued as God showed me new things as the sun rose.

It was beautiful. The clouds were extremely flat looking like white sand as they reflected the sunlight in glorious colours of soft gold and pinks… It even looked like the parting of the Red Sea for the beginning of the journey and as if God was saying I should follow the Light across and journey into His rest. It all just felt so extremely symbolic.

I feel after a time of spiritual attack, I’m finally getting the chance to walk into a place of rest with Him and I’m feeling lighter and more peaceful today, than I have in a few weeks. I’m feeling peaceful and I have to admit, it feels good. God is great and I feel like I’m taking moments now to just soak in His complete rest, in a place He has prepared for me.

Exodus 23:
v 20  Behold, I send an Angel before you to keep and guard you on the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared.
v 21  Give heed to Him, listen to and obey His voice; be not rebellious before Him or provoke Him, for He will not pardon your transgression; for My Name is in Him.
v 22  But if you will indeed listen to and obey His voice and all that I speak, then I will be an enemy to your enemies and an adversary to your adversaries.

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Indescribable Peace and Forgiveness

Last night we at cell we spoke about forgiveness. We spoke about Hettie Brits’ testimony of being raped and how she didn’t ever see the face of the man who did, because she chose to close her eyes. She forgave him and also didn’t want to be able to see who her rapist was. There is so much to tell about her story but what personally stood out for me is how she just forgave, without blinking. She forgave and didn’t have any issues doing it, she also asked people to pray with her for him. Her rapist was caught, she now knows his name and he is in jail. He also got saved in this process accepting Christ as His Savior.

When she asked that people would pray with her for him, a person’s natural response is “Why?”. As Christians, it is always easy for us to agree with all that is said. I mean, it is easy to agree with all she says, as it is things we as Christians stand for….but he raped her… It is definitely a hard thought to get past for some. Lots of people thought and still think, she’s crazy to just forgive and be so loving towards her attacker.

But for me, it is something I relate with and I can truly say, when you are a believer and you have God on your side, that sort of forgiveness and peace can be possible. I too, have experienced that same situation and have had that same forgiveness, peace and intense love come over me. I have been in the situation of rape, 3 times in my life and different to Hettie, I saw all 3 men. 2 of them I knew very well and the one I didn’t. One of the most profound moments being when a long time friend was drunk and tried forcing himself upon me. While the situation proceeded, I would always pray in my head asking God where He was and that He would help me. At that time, a friend came somehow completely oblivious to the situation, calling this friend. That was the end of what had happened. Since then, we’re still friends. He has never said sorry, but I have also never pressed charges or felt the need to make anything of it. That friend has also visited numerous times and we have had supper together and watched DVDs. So I understand that you can’t explain it and you do sound crazy to others. But it happens, and we can only thank God for it.

She also spoke about Psalm 23 being a thought that passed through her mind when this person touched her and said “I want”. In Psalm 23 it says, “I shall not want”. She explained, how he will always want but without God, will never find what he really is looking for. We don’t have to want because we have God and He takes care of all our needs. I have also, with that same situation also had Psalm 23 mean so much to me and I have never understood why until we spoke about it last night and what Hettie had said.

So, I know it is sometimes hard to forgive, and people can not tell you what to do in those situations if they haven’t been through it themselves. I strongly am against telling people what to do or giving advice if I haven’t been through something similar myself. But if you do come into a tough situation, just ask God to help you with it. You might not have some crazy wild God experience, but you may end up finding a way to forgive or some sort of peace. As long as you trust that God will help you, I am sure He will help you find a way of dealing with whatever may be going on. 

Psalm 23:

The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever.

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Our Tears Collected

In life the going can really get tough and after the year we have had in Intentional Living, it has been extremely tough at times and still continues to be.

Last night, I went to have something to drink with a friend. Very last minute, but this friend was going through a crisis and still is. When I got to her, her eyes were red and puffy from crying…I knew deep within me what was going on before it had happened.

Anyway, after a tough year, her year got even more tough and I really felt sorry for her, because I have been there. This year has been crazy with the trials we’ve gone through. She has been crying all week, since Monday and I can totally understand. We’re just so damn tired of all this, all this stuff happening. Losing people or things, bad situations….even now, when it is something she had prayed about, something that she knows is God’s will and has gone out in faith and done what He has asked even though it is hard and difficult for her… She has been faithful..but as we know, being faithful and what we have to do for God, won’t always be easy and fun. And this time, as every trial we’ve been through this year so far, it is very far from fun.

What is really cool about God, is that He knows what we need before we ask and when you go out as a friend, just to listen and love them..somehow God is always able to use us in these kinds of situations. After our talk last night, even though I didn’t feel very helpful and I tried to give her advice from my experiences, God still used me… She let me know afterward, that she was glad I had come, because she just had to make sense of things with someone and that she has felt such peace come over her. I was pretty stoked that she had peace about what was happening. And I was just as stoked, because I hadn’t come there looking for answers for myself or anything for me, but when I left, I felt so much peace about my life and what I am doing at the moment, as well as about my relationships… It was pretty amazing. I left feeling extremely peaceful and grateful and like God really just is in control of it all, which is a pretty darn good feeling to have after this crazy hectic year and all the tears we’ve cried…

So all in all what I can say is, God is faithful. Even though this year, I’ve cried millions of tears, God really counts them all and I know He sees it and will do something about them, especially when I can’t. And after all the tears you have cried, if you keep holding onto Him, peace DOES come and when it does, it is incredible. I am so grateful for where I am now, the peace I have and I am sure it will come for my friend too.

So lastly I want to leave you with a verse a friend sent to me earlier in the year, and I was reminded of while praying for this friend this morning.

Psalm 56v8-13:

You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. On the very day I call to you for help, my enemies will retreat. This I know: God is on my side. O God, I praise your word. Yes, Lord, I praise your word. I trust in God, so why should I be afraid? What can mere mortals do to me?  I will fulfill my vows to you, O God, and offer a sacrifice of thanks for your help. For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now I can walk in your presence, O God, in your life-giving light.

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Angels Passing Through

Many times, we struggle with waking up early…I mean, it is all good and well when you know you’re getting up early to go down to the beach but when you’re living in the city and it’s to pray, in the early hours after a long night – suddenly it isn’t half as easy as usual.

But when you do get up, especially when you really do feel like it, somehow it always seem worth it and more memorable than other times. This morning was one of those mornings which I didn’t want to get up. I got to bed late, I just didn’t feel it.

I dragged myself out of bed after my alarm had gone off. I decided to go to the study with my Bible, laptop and diary, got myself a cup of tea and sat down. I needed to pray for a friend and then Heinrich, Aunty Valencia, Ingrid, Karen and Bernhard – as Uncle Johann passed away exactly a month ago.

It was a dark morning, looked like it was going to rain but it has turned out to be a gorgeous, hot day. But this morning, after praying, the house was still quiet. I was able to open the door of the study that opens so that wind comes in. It was just such

a peaceful morning, that really had me feeling peaceful and feeling God’s presence. It was just such a pleasure to listen to the wind blowing through the rustling leaves of the trees….the rustling of the leaves made sounds I love. It sounded like it was raining.Every time I hear that sound, I am reminded of what a friend use to tell me about that…. “Every time you hear the sound of the wind, they say, it is God’s angels passing through,” – that really brought a smile to my face. The same sound that the trees made when the wind was blowing at Uncle Johann’s grave the Friday that he was buried. But it was just amazing to me, how God made His Presence known and filled me with His Gracious Love.

So even when we do struggle, I guess God knows it and when we push through the struggling, He gives us a moment…a beautiful memorable moment with Him.

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Where there is trust, there is love. Where there is love, there is peace. Where there is peace. there is God. And where God is, nothing else is needed.Riamien

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City Life & its Blessings

Wow! Been back in the city for a few days and already I am missing the waves, the coast, the peace & absolute NO RUSH!!! Everything that has been happening since I’ve been back in Pretoria has left me a little tired & like I had no holiday at all!!! But being at the coast did get me back into a few great habits – like making time to spend with God(no leaving the house without chilling with Him first), healthy eating & getting back into some exercise routine!

A few really cool things have also happened! Apart from 7’s rugby training tonight which is also gonna kill me, I’ve had some very good news. A few posts ago I asked that we pray for 4 women – my mom, Riamien, Liz & Elicia. Of those 4 – I’ve heard great news from 2 of them, Liz & Riamien. Liz has started to recover after surgery, she is slowly getting back her strength & is now walking. She has even darkened her hair & cut a fringe(*bangs – for my American friends). It is a slow journey but I’m so happy to have her back at varsity, smiling & alive as we really didn’t know if she would make it at one point! Riamien went for her scan last Wednesday(exactly a week ago), we had all prayed for her the previous evening at a prayer meeting. The results came back earlier this week & were super positive.  Some of the stuff in her lungs that were 7cm have shrunken to the crazy size of 2cm & may not even be of any danger to her. She has 3 chemo sessions left that she will be getting next week! So praise the Lord for His amazing work!!! Such great news & blessings – to God be the glory!!!

I must admit though I did miss my housemates! Ani & I are exercising together daily & trying to support each other & motivate each other with the healthy eating! I really have missed talking to her & all the funny expressions she has. We have been busy turning our one room into a guest room, which we will finish tomorrow (as that is when our guests Mark – a former housemate & his wife Laura) & then the other, Ani & I are turning into a prayer room. We’re down to 5 girls in our house & 3 guys, with 2 more guys – Jason & Thomas moving in next week! Good friends of mine, Chris & Mona have moved to the city too now, from the coast & Chris is the new pastor at one of the churches in Doornkloof. So happy to have them closer, will be visiting there a lot. He preached on Sunday for the first time, Sunday morning & evening – I went to both services & it seems like they’re settling in very well. We’ll be having a kinda housewarming this Friday #braaitime

Other cool news I received over the weekend was from my friend Scotty!!! What a champion…. So this crazy child is going to Australia soon. He knows how keen I am on going and stuff and has offered to sponsor me a ticket!!! So Australia will be seeing me sooooooon!!! Whoop!!! Beyond keen #soexcited&blessed

Ohhhhhhh and some news – out of the city & more coastal vibes(I know this is supposed to be a city update but I just have to share). Bethany Hamilton has been awarded the wildcard, she is paddling out alongside Laurie Towner (Australia) and local surfers Mustofa Jeksen (Kuta) and Made Lana (Uluwatu) at the Rip Curl Cup 2012 at Padang Padang in Indonesia!!! She will be the first-ever woman to compete in the Rip Curl Cup which is currently taking place until the 26th August! So let’s hold thumbs that she’ll be catching some great waves as those can be quite a challenge!!!

Anyway that was just a little update! God is good & great & He does answer prayers!

Have a great blessed week

Xx

M

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