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New Adventures

During the last week, a lot has happened in my life and it seems God is taking me in a different direction and on a new journey…. I’m changing varsities and it seems like I’ll be a part time student soon enough and working. But I have no idea where I’m going.

In this week of chaos, Freddie and Ashley stopped by to surprise Jean, so we got some time to catch up! Totally amazing and always a blessing to see them. Really did pick up my week.

Jean has flown to Cape Town to visit Cornu. I haven’t been to Cape Town but it feels it might be the direction I’m heading towards… So Jean has been sending me beautiful pics of Cape Town. While he’s away, I’m chilling out and getting ready for our Balito trip next week with Cornu and Eline. Unfortunately Freddie and Ashley won’t be joining us, but we’ll hopefully see them for my birthday at the end of August and will definitely see them in October for a weekend when we celebrate Freddie’s birthday.

New adventures are on the horizon, new places, new friends… It really is an exciting time 🙂
Xx

Eline, Cornu, Freddie and Ashley in Cape Town

Eline, Cornu, Freddie and Ashley in Cape Town

Jean's view over Cape Town from Cornu's place

Jean’s view over Cape Town from Cornu’s place

Jean's coffee before he travels

Jean’s coffee before he travels

Flying to Cape Town

Flying to Cape Town

Excited for new adventures and our trip to Balito in my home province

Excited for new adventures and our trip to Balito in my home province

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Feeling cloudy

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Lala goes strawberry picking

large (2)Today I’m feeling a little cloudy… Mixed emotions…I should be super excited because I’m going home for a couple of days but my emotions are feeling a little mixed.

This morning I got to chat to Lala again.. It just always seems to amaze me how God knows exactly what our needs are all the time and how sufficient His love and grace is in every part of our life. It was good to talk to her but now I’m feeling bummed because she won’t be home when I’m there & I know we’ve both been feeling a little homesick. But I am glad to see that she enjoyed picking strawberries today and suddenly I’m longing to be in Germany, to have fun and do that with her.

On the other hand, this day feels like it has been going too quickly and that I haven’t had enough time to see Jean…as the time draws closer to my leaving tonight, I’m feeling bummed that he can’t come home with me at this moment and visit the family. But he has to work and I totally understand…and this was so unplanned anyway.

Jean & I

Jean & I

But I am stoked and excited to be going home. Seeing mates, my family as well as see the beach again. Apparently it has been raining and I haven’t seen rain in months. So as excited as I am to go out to the beach and chill, I’m also looking forward to the rainy days where I can cuddle up with a cup of tea and a good book! large (3)

Either way, feeling clouded or not, I really am hoping to make the best of these last few days before studying starts again. large

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New blessings & opportunities

401945_579644305391164_1470672967_nThe weekend that just passed was an awesome weekend as I spent it with friends. A weekend that had been planned and booked out ages ago as we have to for all our sakes. It was a weekend of celebrating Jean’s birthday, but more of praying together and sharing our hearts and a lot of testimony sharing…. We all stayed in a guest house and ate together and talked and laughed, we played pool and danced and sang and just had a lovely time together, all as a group but at times also breaking up into groups of just guys and just girls to chat and share other things. It really was lovely. A blessed weekend and it was great to see God being the center of it all for all of us.  Not only did we grow individually, but we as sisters and the guys together as brothers in Christ, a really close knit family!

crazylove2 photo crazylove3 IMG-20130520-WA001 IMG-20130520-WA005Then further during this week, I got to catch up with a very good friend of mine who had been in Cape Town. I really had a lovely time with Megan, we’ve even made plans for the upcoming weekend with one of our other friends, Corne. I have had a dinner date with my boyfriend and prospects of new business come up as well as job offers and prospects of joining new teams for the organizing of ministry and conferences. These new prospects have really been a blessing as God takes me into a new phase of my life, which has me extremely excited as God shows me how He is going to provide for me and my family. Then lastly, but not least, God has also taken a situation with a friend, and restored our relationship, reconciling us as friends which has come unexpectedly and has just been such a blessing as God lines up all these amazing things in my life. It truly has humbled me and put me at such peace, as God just keeps on providing!!!

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Dad’s 50th Weekend

IMG_06282 weekend’s ago (10th-12th May), I went home for my dad’s 50th. It truly was a blessed weekend as I got to see family and just spend quality time with my parents. It was a bitter sweet weekend as it really opened my eyes to the situation at home and how my parents are struggling financially and the time at home was way too short, but I had a lot of fun and really enjoyed the deep conversations I had with my parents. We really opened up to each other and my dad really appreciated us coming home for his birthday and my mom was happy we were there for mother’s day. We also laughed a lot and my dad told lots of stories, I got to share details with them about the new budding relationship in my life and also just share my heart with them. It was great being able to lie against my dad and keep warm while talking on the couch and awesome to chill on my mom’s bed and just watch a movie with her. The weekend weather was cold and rainy, so it gave us a lot of time to spend indoors chatting and catching up. I also got to see one of my best mates, Stubbs, on Friday night for coffee and then we cooked supper for his mom. We both got to share and talk about new opportunities and prospects coming into our lives and what our future’s hold and just talk deeply about God and a bunch of stuff, sharing jokes and stories and coffee – it really was a blessing.IMG_0629 IMG-20130510-WA002

That same weekend though, my boyfriend had been involved in a car accident, a head on collision. Our friend Michelle was in the car with him and she got hurt, breaking her collar bone and cracking two ribs, he went through the windscreen. Luckily, everyone came out alive but I was pretty shaken up when I got the news as I wasn’t in the same province and was over 700km’s away. Luckily, God has blessed us with four amazing friends, them being his two best friends and each of their girlfriends. Freddie and Ashley, Cornu and Eline went over to go see him, sending me news and photos to let me know he’s okay and reassuring me. I really appreciated it and truly have been blessed by these amazing people. My parents were with me when I got the news, so they comforted me while I cried and went through the motions of shock and processing it all. My mom gave hugs and chocolate, while my dad made tea and told jokes. It really was a great weekend overall, that strengthened relationships and really built solid foundations for a great future. It really showed me what love is and how blessed I am to have people who care in my life. I am so thankful for it all.IMG-20130511-WA003 IMG-20130511-WA002

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The Tool in His hands

Jean: Emotion clouds spirit. Love is not an emotion.

Michelle: I just don’t understand God’s commands towards your brother. I don’t understand why it is my place to do this job or what exactly my place is in this. Why isn’t he rather asking you to do this? I mean you know him better, you’re his brother and he’ll listen to you. I mean, I have no clue what I’m doing here and it is confusing me and making me feel unsure about myself and I don’t feel half as bold and confident as I usually do?! I feel blind. Like I’m in a dark room which is totally pitch black, and it’s as if God is expecting me to just rearrange it. I just don’t understand this.

I know love isn’t an emotion. I mean, I’m still doing exactly what God has asked and still will carry on doing it. It’s just I don’t understand.

Jean: FOCUS

Michelle: What must I FOCUS on?!!!! Gee, God also just said that to me!

Jean:  Why does it bother you so much to be lead by God? Yes, the world is a dark room. That’s why we have a shepherd. Because alone things won’t work.  It is not your responsibility to help Him, you’re just a tool. God is going to bless you. Come now. Stop looking at the dark room and focusing on that. That is the enemy.

Michelle: It is because I don’t know where He’s leading me with this one…Usually I can put a few of the puzzle pieces together…but with this one..this time.. I can’t. And it is making me feel vulnerable and unsure because I don’t know if I’m doing anything right. Am I even hearing Him correctly? I just don’t understand what He’s trying to achieve with all this…

Jean: Does a kid know where the food comes from in the evening when he has supper? Or his sandwiches at lunch? No, all he knows is that his father loves him and provides for him. The rest doesn’t matter.

Michelle: Gosh, you and God, both know me too well.

Jean: God knows you too well.

Michelle: Yeah…

Jean: So are you gonna chill now or carry on running around like a headless chicken???? I’m just asking (he says while laughing).

Yes.

Moss.

Swimming pool.

Oar.

Rowing.

32.

I don’t know.

Michelle: Well, I was crying but now I’m laughing at how ridiculous you’re being and sounding! Thanks!

Jean: Pleasure. And you’re the one who is being ridiculous.

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That’s how one of my conversations went down this morning with one of my really close spiritual brothers. We were talking about God and I was constantly referring to a situation God is busy using me in with Jean’s brother.

Jean truly is a great spiritual brother. I’m blessed to have him in my life. And it is in times like these that I really am thankful to God for such a great spiritual brother and just insanely in awe of how God knows exactly what each of His children need.

Anyway, I think there are so many times that we feel like I did this morning. When God has given us instruction to do something, and at first we run into it without asking questions, 100% full on faith. Then some things happen and slowly the enemy brings in that doubt trying to shake your faith or take your focus away from the One who is perfect and the task at hand and tries to turn it to all that could go wrong and so forth. As if you need to be the one controlling the details and not God, as if God hasn’t got the plan down and you need to start changing it, making you question God’s authority, the same way the enemy once did.

But luckily, in the body of Christ there are so many different parts and functions. When you’re so tuned into God, there will be times that you have a little bit of a panic attack as the enemy tries to make you waver… but God blesses us, and He uses other functioning parts that are deeply tuned into Him as well, to help steer you back. It is in these times that I look back at that conversation and feel a little dumb for ever doubting in His plan and a little embarrassed. But it is also then, that I come to the realisation of just how amazing His grace is upon us, that He remains faithful and loving towards me, even in my doubt. That He loves me so much that He would try and steer me back to Him and all I have to do is take His hand as He stretches it out.

So in these times, whether He uses another person to steer you back or not, you have to focus your eyes on Him. Go back to the task He set you out to do, not because He needs you, but because He loves you and wants to use you as a tool in that situation. Don’t doubt in His reasoning for using you or how He’s going to make everything work out, because He knows the details and He’s got all that down. It isn’t about you or what you can do. It is about Him and what He is doing or going to do. You’re just a tool in His hands. So don’t let the enemy try and waver you with dumb lies, he is only doing it because he knows how great God’s outcome can be and he despises any good outcome.  So don’t get distracted by the details and the lies fed by the enemy. God put a plan together a long time ago and He knows every piece that needs to be fitted into the puzzle that He created, just carry on focusing on Him and being part of that puzzle.

Just go back to the task at hand, keep your eyes focused on the Lord and trust Him. He’s got it all down.

Funny enough, another friend, Henru, sent me the following verse, the evening before this conversation would go down with Jean:

Let us keep our eyes fixed on Jesus, whom our faith depends on from beginning to end. He did not give up because of the cross! On the contrary, because of the joy that was waiting for Him, He thought nothing of the disgrace of dying on the cross, and He is now seated at the right side of God’s throne. (Hebrews 12v2)

So as Jean would say, “FOCUS!” So stay focused and don’t stress about the outcome, just enjoy and stay focused on being the tool in God’s amazing hands.

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God’s Loving Fingerprints over Easter

Girl-and-Sunset-1So this year my Easter weekend was a little different than usual. It was my first Easter away from home and I was definitely aware of it. It had me thinking a lot about how I spend it and how all the people close to me spent it…and even though we were all in different places, I was updated by each one and it kinda felt like we were all still celebrating together. Kinda like all living under the same roof just in different rooms of the house.

But what was most beautiful about being apart and doing things so differently, is how extremely close God felt to me, and to each and every other person in their Easter celebrations. He was everywhere and He made it visible. So although I was doing things at my own pace and it was totally different – it ended up being a very special Easter weekend.

On Thursday  we chilled out and saw two great friends, Jaco and David and caught up a little with them. That evening, I was on my way to church, dressed all in pink, ready for communion that would take place at church, when a little crisis came up. Luckily my little sister was very graceful about it, and after the crisis was taken care of we headed to the Union Buildings, with our pink sterie stumpies. It was such a beautiful evening, with a lot of adventure and exploring and bonding. After that, a friend called me out for coffee at Just Cuban restaurant, and we had a very chilled evening chatting and being very mellow. We had a little heart to heart over coffee and some hubbly and when I got home round 12pm, I found my little sister in the kitchen making soup. So we had soup together before we called it a night. Pretoria-20130328-00611 Pretoria-20130328-00613 IMG-20130328-00609 IMG-20130328-00699

Friday was a chilled day and I was updated by a mate who was cycling in P.E over the Easter weekend. Just showing me how beautiful the routes are over there. Pretoria-20130325-00691 PE

As well as one of my friend’s who stayed in the same house as I, Pieter, got engaged to his lovely fiance Annine!!! So another wedding on the way32588_10151365699212745_1388385616_n (1)

Saturday was pretty chilled apart from my sister’s cleaning. I also was worrying about a friend who had been working 3 weeks straight without any breaks, so I waited on him to hear where we were going to go chill out. But he surprised me with a phone call after 10pm, mentioning that I should get dressed up and stuff and he’d pick me up in 15mins or so. That turned out to be such a great evening, we chilled and danced all night with more really good mates and ended up sleeping over in Hartebeespoort with all of them. It turned out to be a very fun-filled evening and the next morning was even more special as it was Easter Sunday. IMG-20130330-00700

Easter Sunday was very special, as usually I’m at the Sunrise Service back home with mates. It is usually round 5 or so a.m. at St. Mikes beach. This year I couldn’t be there but it was still pretty special, as usually afterwards, they do baptisms. This year, my best mates, little sisters were baptized. Daryl’s little sister, Bridget and then Stubbs’ little sister, Helen were baptised by Sim! Although I couldn’t be there, my best mates were there for it, and even though I wasn’t, I got to see the photo’s and I’m so happy for them. It reminded me of when my best mates got baptised and when I did. Really great and special moments. While that was happening, we were waking up in Harties and it was a very chilled morning with the wind blowing through the trees. We all woke up, one of my very special mates started a fire as we all sat and talked, watching him and eating Easter eggs. The guys then left to go buy some stuff for breakfast, while us ladies made turns going through the shower. When they got back, we were all sipping on Mc Donald’s machine coke, while playing pool and Eugene was making us all omelettes. We all sat having a chilled breakfast and talking about religions and Easter and a few other things. At about 1pm it was time to say our goodbyes and head back to Villeria and Hatfield, Pretoria. It was such a chilled drive, the trip took us an hour as we listened to music, got a little lost as we got to know Pretoria a little better and chatted. At about 3pm my little sister and I headed out to Mozambik, ending our day off with talking about Easter and a few other things, taking photos, eating amazing seafood and sipping on RnR’s in such a beautiful, chilled setting. Felt like a proper blom session and it had us longing to be home, reminding us of good times and mates. As the evening and my weekend ended, I got to see some photos of my friends at The Monument in Pretoria, where they had an Easter picnic, as well as Matt sending me a photo of the sunset at Sterkfontein Dam.  216632_4507057790327_29185345_n 299158_4507069910630_1783837879_n 625473_587519747926237_401570647_nPretoria-20130331-00715 Pretoria-20130331-00713 Pretoria-20130331-00712 Pretoria-20130331-00721 Pretoria-20130331-00717 Pretoria-20130331-00722 IMG-20130331-00615 Pretoria-20130331-00723 Pretoria-20130331-00726

A chilled Easter weekend, with so many special moments, all of them being wide and far apart, but in each setting it was just amazing to see Jesus there, and see the Fingerprint of Love that He leaves everywhere, in every beautiful situation. The Fingerprint of Love that He has left, as if dying on a cross for us just wasn’t enough.sterkfontein dam - matty

For God so loved the world, that He gave us His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3v16

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Hope with Promise

wind1After all I experienced last year, all the death and pain and loss, all the discomfort and hurt and disappointment, I can honestly say, I still haven’t learnt how to completely deal with it. I thought I had, but I have been truly humbled by losing Riamien, as I saw how much I still needed to learn about processing the disappointment and hurt and loss. I saw it in the shock I felt when I heard the news, then the sudden anger & disappointment I felt towards God…all the crying I did and shouting and babbling between tears that my friend Jean, at that moment – had to deal with…luckily he was very understanding and patient and handled me with such love and grace. He didn’t give me answers and he sat and prayed with me, speaking only when God allowed him and I am so blessed and thankful for that. He truly is an amazing spiritual brother.

At about 12pm that evening I was still awake and Doug heard the news, and sent me a sermon by Bill Johnson that speaks exactly about this loss and how we deal with it. Doug and a few others had me travel down to meet them at the coast last year when I had also suffered another loss, so I think he just knew this was needed. Bill Johnson speaks in this sermon about a few things but especially about learning to process disappointment & how to walk through & navigate when things don’t turn out how expected or prayed for or whatever it may be. I truly believe, in every part of my spirit and soul, that this is something we need to learn to do otherwise many things in our life will be out of balance.

Learning to process disappointment & how to walk through & navigate when things don’t turn out how expected, may be one of the most difficult lessons to learn. It is something which may have to be repeated every time you go through a disappointment, so that you learn to apply and understand the concept but it is of great value. We need to learn to minister to ourselves and know how to navigate this disappointment to be able to fully step into what God has intended for us, to step fully into our calling.

We cannot be trusted with the fulfilment of promise until we know how to trust God when things don’t look so good. Therefore we need to trust in Him.

We need to trust the Lord with all our heart, leaning not on our own understanding, but acknowledging Him in all our ways so that He may direct our paths. (Paraphrased from Proverbs 3v5&6).

The word Yedah is translated from the Hebrew as “acknowledge” about only once in Bible.. the rest of the time it speaks of “to know”. So put that in the place of “acknowledge” and you’ll have:

Trust the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways – KNOW (acknowledge) Him, and He will direct your paths.(Proverbs 3v5&6)

We need to trust Him in everything. Trust Him with everything. Take all the stuff that seem or are hard to navigate or process and make them easy to navigate or process – in all our ways KNOW HIM.

And He prepares a table before me, in the presence of my enemies. (Psalm 23v5)

This verse tells of the table God prepares for us in the presence of our enemies, in front of the devil. It is a place of intimacy, intimate gathering, a place of closeness and refuge. We need to find that place, in the midst of disappointment, in the midst of all the chaos, despite what we feel at that moment – find that place of communion and then He will help us navigate.

It is like finding the eye of the tornado. It is the place where it is most peaceful. Drawing closer to God, drawing near to Him and KNOWing Him in all things and all ways.

In times of difficulty, actually so many times, we throw in the towel and say that ‘this isn’t what we signed up for.’ In a moment of great tragedy or loss or some disappointment, we give up. We get angry, we get sad – which is normal and is probably okay in trying to come to terms with whatever has happened, but when we make that decision that this is not what we signed up for then we are wrong, because we did. We did when we said ‘yes’ to the Lord, when we accepted Him.

God has such a profound ability to redeem any terrible or horrific situation that many people including those in churches will assume the conclusion that God designed that terrible/horrific situation and to just assume that is wrong. Often, I have made the mistake of thinking that and assuming such nonsense and falling into the devil’s trap. This is where we need to understand the difference between what God approves, what He ordains and what the enemy means for evil.

Death, loss, destruction – those are Satan’s fingerprints, they are NOT God’s. (This is something Jean and many others have told me over and over, but something I quickly seem to forget…)

Bill asks and says the following and I love how he puts it and I totally agree:

Q: Can God use disease?

A: Of course He can. He is able to shift things to use to His advantage. But we would never think God led someone into sin but the church often says He leads people into disease to make them stronger. This is not true. God would no more lead someone into sickness/disease than He would lead them into sin.

If we look at drug addicts who get free from drugs, we will see that they usually end up ministering to other drug addicts with great authority. When truly free, they walk with authority in that area and God uses them to set others free. That applies to many situations.

God’s ability is so profound in His capability of taking a fallen person and raising them up and giving them authority in the area that they fell in, that those who haven’t yet come to Christ can easily make the mistake of thinking that God is leading them into sin so that He could use their sin for something better.

But we know that is not true.

If we understand the concept of grace correctly then we should naturally come to that conclusion (that God does not lead us into sin). Paul deals with that exact question in Romans asking ‘so should we sin so we can see grace abound?’

But in this question, he just outlines the fact that God’s grace is more than enough and answers the question by saying, ‘no, absolutely not.’

The point being that God would never lead you into any horrific sin so that later in life He could use you to promote the Gospel. And as that is true, He would never afflict anyone into disease so that they or their family would be a better family or whatever the reason we may think.

May God, the source of hope, fill you with joy and peace through your faith in Him. Then you will overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15v13)

Faith will bring answers but not all the answers and that is why there is something like enduring faith. If faith brought all the answers, you wouldn’t need enduring faith. So faith brings answers, but enduring faith brings answers with character.

There is a great privilege in seeing God touch people’s lives. That is stated and made clear in the book of Acts, as miracles and breakthrough is seen. The power of God is displayed in miracles and then also displayed in endurance.

Bill Johnson talks about Steven, in the Bible. What a great servant he was – to have served Jesus, the Great Deliverer, until the very day of his martyrdom, when the Great Deliverer did not deliver him. It just shows the great honour there is, in standing in the midst of mystery when there hasn’t been a breakthrough and to still have that ‘yes to the Lord’ in your heart. There is just something so special about keeping the resolve when things didn’t work out as you thought. Keeping the trust in the One Most Trustworthy is the great privilege of the Christian life.

Falling into the hands of the Living God is a terrifying thing. (Hebrews 10v31)

To have God in control can often be a scary thought. Giving all control up and knowing it is all in His hands is scary, especially in the situation of a loved one who is sick or something that means a lot to you. But it can also be a very wonderful thing. Waiting on Him to make the decisions is an amazing thing, because delayed answers gain interest. And wherever God says no – it is because He has a better ‘yes’ to follow.

Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you endured in a great conflict full of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. You suffered along with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. (Hebrews 10v32-36)

The power of God on our life is to demonstrate the Kingdom. It is to demonstrate the delivering, redeeming power of Jesus, but there are times that this doesn’t seem to work or to happen. And it is then, that the power lies in the ability to remain ‘yes’ before the Lord when our circumstances seem to deny what we thought would happen. There is power in the miracles but there is also power in the endurance.

Referring back to Psalm 23v5 – In the celebration He makes the devil watch. Every time we say we love Jesus, it is like He plays it over the devil’s intercom so that he hears it.

So whether we get a promotion at work, do well in a test or a loved one dies – in all your ways KNOW HIM. Take a moment to feast on the One THAT IS more than enough. When you do that, the disease that comes from disappointment cannot and will not devour the heart.

We need to learn to do that. Many times, I myself or others, put all the weight of our/their walk with God on an answer we think should happen. No matter how Biblically sound it appears to be – the weight of God’s entire character rests on one particular breakthrough. And to do this, I’ve realized and have been told too, is so ridiculous and so extremely dangerous! To put our whole walk with Christ, everything we’ve experienced with Him; His call – when He called us by name, called us to relationship with Him and we said ‘yes’ and repentance came and we believed in His name and we were born-again; to put all that into question if we don’t become or get what we thought we should – is dangerous. It is absolutely foolish because that is exactly what the enemy wants. He wants us to constantly put everything in a corner with no understanding of it.

The question then is that although I believe in miracles, what if I never saw one for the rest of my life? What would I do?

Bill says – Even if he never saw one for the rest of his life, he’d already seen too much to change how he lives. He can’t put the weight of how he’s going to live on just one more prophetic word, just one more miracle or one more encounter. He’s already seen enough.

And that’s how we need to see this.

God has called us to fight for breakthrough for His glory, but when things don’t work out, there are probably things that are wrapped around these problems that we do not know how to dismantle. But He is giving us insight and maturing us. The formulae that we have for breakthrough to happen should be destroyed. Because it isn’t a formula, it is a relationship with this Being where He breathes life into us, every moment, day by day. And we need to take these losses as painful as they are – or as tragic as they are – and they need to drive us into that secret place with the Lord where we say ‘God you’ve gotta increase the anointing, increase our understanding where it’s needed so that these things that are wrapped around these problems, that have not yet yielded to the name Jesus – show me what I can do?’

Whenever there’s a loss or disappointment – being able to stand with an absolute ‘yes’ to God, is where strength is discovered.

Anyone who has gone through a loss or is dealing with it right now will be able to testify to not being particularly strong right now, as they are all depleted of strength, drained from emotion. But that’s where God says His strength is perfected in weakness (refer to 2 Corinthians 12v9 or Philippians4v13 or Nehemiah8v10).

Anytime there is someone depleted of all the strength they can muster up, yet they’ve retained their ‘yes’ to God – that is some of the most profound strength that exists on this planet. It’s the ‘yes’ in the midst of no ability to pull ourselves up by the boot straps…it’s that ‘yes’.  That trusting with all your heart. Faith brings answers. Enduring faith brings answers. And then there is Romans 8v28:

We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God – those whom He has called according to His purpose.

That promise isn’t even necessary if there are things that don’t make it past faith and past enduring faith.

We cannot lose trust in the One who is perfectly good. We need to realise that there are things we do not understand and if for some reason it seems to appear that there was a NO – that there’s a better YES coming and when we realize that, it turns our hearts to that hope and promise.

It’s not endurance – it is hope with promise.

All things work together for good. That is for all the things that get past faith and enduring faith. It’s the confidence that God is able to use the worst of situations for His glory. And in eternity you’ll look back at all the things you questioned and say ‘AMEN.’

Funerals put us in touch with eternity. This life is a mere breath, a shadow. Eternity is a substance and that’s what we’re living for. Anytime we lose sight of that, eternity is what keeps us and our morals sound. It’s like athletes who train for 4 years to run a 10 second race. It is basically just a moment. We live, for however long it is, for that one moment…To hear, ‘Well done.’ Everything is for that ONE moment.

So all I know now, is that I have gotta get back to that table. That table that God has put there, and although I may be surrounded by my enemy – he’s the one that is powerless as I draw near to feast on the One who is perfectly faithful.tumblr_mc093jWMEJ1rxxk99o1_500_large (1)

The prayer that Bill Johnson left me with is as follows:

“That God would raise up a generation of champions that hold the resolve of a profound ‘yes’ regardless of circumstances, yet a people that grow in anointing and wisdom to unravel the things that surround disease, affliction and torment. That there would be an increase of breakthrough anointing, that there would be an unusual grace & ability to find the table that has been set in the midst of enemies, in the midst of confusing situations and to be able to feast. I also thank Him for making the devil watch our relationship which increasingly grows. I bless the Lord. Amen.”

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. (James 1v17)

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Looking after Our Souls

644722_4478619680481_1720799057_nMy friend Riamien – what a fantastic friend. She truly was an inspiration to all of us and she will not be forgotten. My beautiful friend who struggled with lung cancer, passed away yesterday, after suffering and being in extreme pain these past few weeks, and then still picking up an infection. Luckily, Jesus really loves us, He comforts us and makes things okay when they seem not to be.

He blessed me with a beautiful friendship with her. I only got to know her after she was diagnosed but man, she had such a beautiful soul. Even in her darkest of hours, when she was in extreme pain and we spoke, even then, although she was struggling, there was so much light and love that came from her.

Yesterday, my parents left after a weekend of having them here in the city. It really was good to see them as well as all the other family. I got to see my mom’s aunt turn 70. I played with the most amazing young kids. I ate and laughed with family. I was able to be kept updated of a friend’s wedding far away by two other very good friends. And yesterday, after spending a weekend with family, I got to spend most of my day and evening last night, with a very close spiritual brother whom I talked about earlier. Jean, who returned from Thailand. His brother, also joined us at the driving range later the afternoon. I was very blessed by these two. Especially, when the news came through of my cherished friend’s death. At that time, we had stopped to get take-away coffee and had headed to our university sport’s fields, to drink our coffee and watch God make thunder and lightning and bring on the rain.

Hearing the news and having been with such good people, God really took care of my soul. He also speaks to me when there is wind and thunder and rain and that was all around last night. So between that and friends, I was being smothered in God’s love and comforted by Him and His grace. After the crying, we sat and watched more of the thunder & lightning, as well as listened to some beautiful songs, one being “Let it Rain”. Through the wind I could feel His love wrap itself around me, and while Jean prayed before we got in the car…for Angels to come, I was able to see angels come. God was there and it was amazing. Yesterday was a beautiful day, despite the loss of my friend. Although I experienced outrage and anger and disappointment towards God, despite all that, Jesus still came & covered me with grace and comfort and love, He overwhelmed me with it and still told me how worthy I am. He truly is a loving Father and He truly blessed me with this weekend, with all that happened and all the people He put there. So thanks to those beautiful people too. God really is taking care of my soul.

And as God takes care of my soul, I pray He will take care of all my precious family and friend’s souls as well as my dear friend’s family in this time.

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