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A season for blooming

It is getting closer and closer to April, and this is probably my most favourite time of the year…It is the season in which tulips come into bloom and they start opening up to show their pretty and delicate colours. Such beautiful flowers that should be handled with such soft and caring touch, that seem a lot like me in that way I guess. This is the time of year that God breathes over them and lightly and gently touches them with His love, peeling them open with a gentleness only He possesses, that opens them to reveal His magnificent beauty and glory… Oh how I love this time of year and how my heart just sings as it is full of praise for Him.

Praise for Him – especially now as my dreams are also blooming into reality by the works of His hands. I have gone for my training to work in the prisons locally, in South Africa and internationally and am now a qualified counsellor and facilitator of Reformative Justice. A dream and desire put on my heart nearly 7 years ago by God, is now becoming a reality. I am now stepping in to it with fef2e7404cfc59a838abca787b26c1a4the authority of Christ. Yesterday I had my last day of training to become qualified and registered, and it felt like one of the most exciting and beautiful days of my life!!!! I am so excited and have such an amazing mentor under whom I will be working until I get transferred to Cape Town and I am truly blessed by Dad with this. The fact that her and I have clicked so well not only emotionally but also in Spirit has been such an amazing blessing, I was definitely pleasantly surprised by it and God’s faithfulness and goodness, Him being true to all He has promised.

I guess what made the day even sweeter and what makes it all sweeter, is that I am finally standing where God has promised after 7 years, of people telling me I couldn’t ever do this or would never be able to. So many critics, so many who tried to break and tear me down and the dreams and desires in my heart, so many who tried their best to discourage me, so many who tried to limit me and didn’t approve, some that still do. Other challenges also came along and it has been a long road taking many turns, as Satan has tried his best to keep me from Dad’s plans and dreams, but he has been unsuccessful and Dad and I have come out victorious. I know there are still many things and challenges that will be thrown my way, but with Dad on my side, who can really come against me?!

What has been amazing on this journey too, is to have seen how God has changed the hearts of my parents along the way as well as my aunt’s. I have always pushed the boundaries and my family’s way of thinking, challenging them and their perspectives as well as that about Jesus, just because my heart and thoughts were so different to theirs and because of the desires and dreams placed on my heart by God. From their perspectives that I couldn’t do this, that these things didn’t fit into the box or what they had hoped for me, to them coming humbly in tears and amazing appreciation, as if their Spiritual Eyes had been opened to God’s amazing plans. It has been humbling and so beautiful, a true honour. I was able to witness the same thing happen to my aunt last night, after feeling years of disapproval, she tried to support me over the years, but she always tried to push me in a different direction as kindly and softly or subtly as she could but I knew how she truly felt… and then last night, with great and honest revelation she came to me apologising as she had been to a conference and there the Spirit had changed and challenged her heart and thoughts… a mind renewed.  She felt guilty and ashamed and I tried my best to comfort her as she shouldn’t feel bad, she should just be more open to different things and different functions now….So I tried to show her as much love as I could…but it was truly a special moment I’ll never forget.

So this journey has been such a blessing and I am excited about what lies ahead…. A flower opening up, coming into bloom…this is a great season!

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Beautiful Robes

large (7)Waking up to a friend in distress is pretty hectic…but God is awesome and seems to prepare our hearts for the knowledge He wants to share with them. In the past couple of weeks, tragedy has set upon lovely sisters of mine and God’s daughters have felt a little more down than usual… A few have been left feeling defeated – but ladies, what you must know is that you ARE NOT. You have not been defeated and God hasn’t been disappointed by you in anyway.

I am going to speak as kindly as I can so bare with me. There is NOTHING in this world that can separate you from Christ and His love. You are 100% close to God 100% of the time!!!

I am sick of the lies and misconceptions about our relationship with God. Churches and people have gotten into a mindset that what we do will change God’s love for us and will somehow affect our relationship with Him. If you believe that, then God isn’t God anymore and Him as a constant, never-changing being seems to be under us and falls under our power somehow. God isn’t dependent on who we are or what we do.

God is love. Regardless of the obscured world-view of what love is and does. Love doesn’t hurt. God is love. God is good. God is truth. He cannot be anything else than that. He doesn’t send wickedness into this world, neither shame, nor death, nor loss or pain or destruction. He does NOT condemn. The only one who does that and has that fingerprint is SATAN. If you haven’t read John 10v10, go read it.

Anyway back to the story…when we feel like we have failed or made a mistake and we can barely look at ourselves in the mirror because we’re ashamed…when we feel like God must be shaking His head at us disappointed, we have to remember that is not how it really is. Those are lies and we are giving into deception from the devil. After doing something I think would have disappointed God, I usually feel overwhelmed by thoughts of shame and disappointment and I feel condemned and judged but I have to remind myself that it can only be Satan who is trying to make me feel that way and he is enjoying every second of it. It is the thing he does, he uses lies because he has nothing else that could possibly change the relationship I have with God. He can’t drive God away, so he tries driving me away with thoughts of guilt and shame, so that I feel like I should run and hide the same way Adam and Eve did. But what happened when they did that, God still came looking for them and CHOSE to clothe them and continued a relationship with these beings He created. Why? Because He is love. He LOVES us. He wants a relationship with us.

Many years ago I did something I was ashamed of and felt like I had disappointed God…but He came to show me that He wasn’t disappointed and loved me and that what I had done hadn’t changed anything about the way He feels about me. There is nothing I could do that could bring me closer or less closer to Him. He already sent His Son… So He’s made sure to show me that He has pursued me and that there is nothing that can stand in the way of my relationship with Him. He doesn’t look away disappointed. Instead He looks at us the way He always has… Through filtered eyes of Jesus. So all He sees is our utter perfection and beauty.. He is God. He is love. He CANNOT look at us with shame or disappointment – because He is GOOD. He cannot be anything other than love and goodness – if He was – He wouldn’t be God anymore.

This morning when I spoke to this friend, God showed me a beautiful picture. He has gorgeous pure robes for you to put on, ones of worthiness, holiness, love, understanding, beauty, comfort – He’s standing there holding those robes… Waiting for you to take it… And I’m sure it comes in pretty colours too…but the devil is also standing there with robes of shame and disappointment, guilt and hurt, robes of unworthiness… But at the end, you’re the one that has to choose which you put on. Are you going to choose the princess dress or the tattered rags…? Because I know God wants you putting on the princess dress and the robes of righteousness. Because He loves you and He wants you feeling like the amazing person you are. Whether you put the beautiful robes on or not He loves you and isn’t disappointed in you. If He didn’t already know about imperfections and mistakes, He wouldn’t have sent His Son. But He wants you putting on the beautiful robes because He loves you and wants the best for you.

What has comforted me is that for long I felt dirty but I went to God and asked Him to show me what He thinks of me – everyday…because I was tired of believing these lies that I was dirty and that He wouldn’t love me as much or whatever the world was telling me. And He did. Everyday something happened. Someone would come up to me and give me compliments or I’d see a beautiful sunset and would feel God showing me His artwork… It made me feel special. Later it became verses and more of His character. And then He sent friends who built me up. It is still a daily thing but I forget more and more about my mistakes. Because God came to comfort me and showed me how there is nothing we can or cannot do that would change how He loves us. His love is constant. He is 100% close to us 100% of the time. He loves us 100% of the time too. So whether I feel close to Him or not, or loved or not, I am 100% of the time. And the only one who fills my head with lies – is usually the devil trying to get between me and my Dad. And he takes cheap shots at my identity because he has nothing else to use against me which is pretty pathetic of him. But in those times that my identity is attacked I remind myself who my Daddy is and in whom my identity is rooted. My identity is rooted in Christ and nothing can change that. So Satan has no chance. Things have already been taken care of through my Saviour.large (3)

So in these times, when you feel ashamed and like you should be running away from God, choose to run towards the One who loves you regardless of your current circumstances. Choose to wear the beautiful robes He wants to clothe you in and let Him show you off in front of Satan. And enjoy your relationship with Daddy in front of the enemy and don’t for one second feel ashamed.

John 3v16: For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

 

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