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A season for blooming

It is getting closer and closer to April, and this is probably my most favourite time of the year…It is the season in which tulips come into bloom and they start opening up to show their pretty and delicate colours. Such beautiful flowers that should be handled with such soft and caring touch, that seem a lot like me in that way I guess. This is the time of year that God breathes over them and lightly and gently touches them with His love, peeling them open with a gentleness only He possesses, that opens them to reveal His magnificent beauty and glory… Oh how I love this time of year and how my heart just sings as it is full of praise for Him.

Praise for Him – especially now as my dreams are also blooming into reality by the works of His hands. I have gone for my training to work in the prisons locally, in South Africa and internationally and am now a qualified counsellor and facilitator of Reformative Justice. A dream and desire put on my heart nearly 7 years ago by God, is now becoming a reality. I am now stepping in to it with fef2e7404cfc59a838abca787b26c1a4the authority of Christ. Yesterday I had my last day of training to become qualified and registered, and it felt like one of the most exciting and beautiful days of my life!!!! I am so excited and have such an amazing mentor under whom I will be working until I get transferred to Cape Town and I am truly blessed by Dad with this. The fact that her and I have clicked so well not only emotionally but also in Spirit has been such an amazing blessing, I was definitely pleasantly surprised by it and God’s faithfulness and goodness, Him being true to all He has promised.

I guess what made the day even sweeter and what makes it all sweeter, is that I am finally standing where God has promised after 7 years, of people telling me I couldn’t ever do this or would never be able to. So many critics, so many who tried to break and tear me down and the dreams and desires in my heart, so many who tried their best to discourage me, so many who tried to limit me and didn’t approve, some that still do. Other challenges also came along and it has been a long road taking many turns, as Satan has tried his best to keep me from Dad’s plans and dreams, but he has been unsuccessful and Dad and I have come out victorious. I know there are still many things and challenges that will be thrown my way, but with Dad on my side, who can really come against me?!

What has been amazing on this journey too, is to have seen how God has changed the hearts of my parents along the way as well as my aunt’s. I have always pushed the boundaries and my family’s way of thinking, challenging them and their perspectives as well as that about Jesus, just because my heart and thoughts were so different to theirs and because of the desires and dreams placed on my heart by God. From their perspectives that I couldn’t do this, that these things didn’t fit into the box or what they had hoped for me, to them coming humbly in tears and amazing appreciation, as if their Spiritual Eyes had been opened to God’s amazing plans. It has been humbling and so beautiful, a true honour. I was able to witness the same thing happen to my aunt last night, after feeling years of disapproval, she tried to support me over the years, but she always tried to push me in a different direction as kindly and softly or subtly as she could but I knew how she truly felt… and then last night, with great and honest revelation she came to me apologising as she had been to a conference and there the Spirit had changed and challenged her heart and thoughts… a mind renewed.  She felt guilty and ashamed and I tried my best to comfort her as she shouldn’t feel bad, she should just be more open to different things and different functions now….So I tried to show her as much love as I could…but it was truly a special moment I’ll never forget.

So this journey has been such a blessing and I am excited about what lies ahead…. A flower opening up, coming into bloom…this is a great season!

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Another pic my friend Annika sent me…. Such beautiful words xx

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Dive for Dreams – E.E Cummings

dive for dreams
or a slogan may topple you
(trees are their roots
and wind is wind)
trust your heart
if the seas catch fire
(and live by love
though the stars walk backward)
honour the past
but welcome the future
(and dance your death
away at the wedding)
never mind a world
with its villains or heroes
(for good likes girls
and tomorrow and the earth)
in spite of everything
which breathes and moves, since Doom
(with white longest hands
neating each crease)
will smooth entirely our minds
-before leaving my room
i turn, and (stooping
through the morning) kiss
this pillow, dear
where our heads lived and were.

silently if, out of not knowable

silently if, out of not knowable
night’s utmost nothing,wanders a little guess
(only which is this world)more my life does
not leap than with the mystery your smile
sings or if(spiralling as luminous
they climb oblivion)voices who are dreams,
less into heaven certainly earth swims
than each my deeper death becomes your kiss
losing through you what seemed myself,i find
selves unimaginably mine;beyond
sorrow’s own joys and hoping’s very fears
yours is the light by which my spirit’s born:
yours is the darkness of my soul’s return
-you are my sun,my moon,and all my stars

Posted by Michelle du Preez

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Finding me means finding Him

I am a very giving person. Someone who enjoys sharing, so much so that I’ve become so involved in sharing others dreams’ that I have lost who I am – this was a fact pointed out to me by a dear friend whilst having hazelnut lattes the other day.

She is a bit older than I am, someone serving on the same committee as I, someone whom I thought I would never be friends with. Or rather, I had made the choice that I didn’t want to be friends with her. I judged too quickly though, for which I am sorry. But one day I just thought I should ask her how it is going with teaching at school and the next thing I know, we became friends. So somehow, God drew us together and He blessed me with this amazing person and sent her to take me for coffee at just the right time. I thought we were such opposites, but it seems, more and more, that we are very much alike. She’s been through so much of what I am dealing with now.

Her thoughts and perspectives have been revelations to me. I am currently in a relationship, but the past year and seven months I have been so caught up in my boyfriend’s schedule and activities, that I have stopped growing and dreaming my own dreams and I have stopped being myself. Not that he required that from me, but just because I throw myself so into his life, sharing his dreams and things that I have become his shadow, exactly what this friend of mine had done. In the end, all of you – is put aside so that the pursuit of your boyfriend’s happiness can be accomplished. At the end of a day or another year, you wonder why nothing of your own has been done, but you hate admitting it is your own fault.

So then, I get asked by my friend, who am I and what do I want? And in all honesty, I was astonished at how hard it was for me to answer that. I have always felt too bad to ask myself anything, thinking that would be selfish, but it’s not! It is something so valid, that it should be done. Yes, I want to pursue God’s dreams for me but because He loves me, He allows me to have my own dreams too. He invites me to dream and He says pursue it unless He lets me know not to.

Now, here I am. Writing. Thinking. I want to pursue God and myself. I want Him to lead me and guide me. I want God to let me know when not to do something, otherwise I will pursue it. I am not going to live in the shadows of my boyfriend or anyone else. I am going to do it all for God. Pursuing God first and things that He wants for me. Not anyone else. I want Him to teach me who I am. Finding myself by finding Him and listening to what He says about me and learning to believe that.

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